Finding out I’m having a son and the anxiety that goes with it

As much as I wanted a son, especially with our political climate, I’m terrified of raising a biracial (black/white) son in the US.

It wasn’t really something I thought about much at first, but then, about a month ago I saw a black man getting arrested. The officer was just grinding his face into the concrete even though he wasn’t resisting in any way.

All I could think about is, if my SO or my baby made any little mistake, that could be them! I found myself hoping for a baby girl so I didn’t have to worry as much about my baby boy growing into a black man that’s going to be hated simply because he’s black. Obviously, women face racism too, but not quite to the violent level that men do. I’m so worried about my son now and he’s still safely tucked away in my uterus!

How do you cope with this anxiety? I was raised in a entirely white family in an entirely white community so I’m being exposed to issues I never would have considered.