8 months PP and 3 months pregnant

I am miserable.

Everyday is the same thing.

I can’t stand myself.

I can’t stand my body.

I have court soon for termination of rights with my ex- he’s a narcissist sociopath. I don’t want to deal with court again.

I keep thinking how life would be better off without me.

My husband asks me what’s wrong and I tell him I’m miserable and he takes it as a personal attack against him.

Nothing makes me happy.

I cry all the time.

My OB doesn’t want me on any medication.

I’m seeing a new psychiatrist in a week but everyone I’ve seen, says the same thing “We don’t think antidepressants are to be taken during pregnancy.”

I used to be on Prozac and Klonopin- that helped. Now I’m on nothing and I literally feel like I’m just in a giant fog and I can’t get out of it.

I need help and it seems like nobody is trying to help me.

I love my little one, but my parents and husband would be just fine without me around.

I’m tired 24/7 and everyday I wake up miserable that it’s the same fucking day all over again.

If anyone has any recommendations on medications that would be nice. I don’t know what else I can do.