Torn between what gender I’m hoping for.

I’ve ALWAYS wanted a boy! It’s always been stuck in my head that I wanted a son and to name him after me. I already have a daughter and I love her to death but I always said no more girls... but my SO and I picked out a name for a baby girl that I’m totally in love with and nowwww I kinda want a girl, for the cute clothes and all of that. But I want a boy because I’ve always wanted a son and I know if I have a girl I am going to want to try again for a boy... but due to the fact I have a clothing disorder my SO is apprehensive on having anymore after this pregnancy because me being pregnant can end up causing a huge risk to mine and the baby’s life during pregnancy, during birth and after delivery.