Just need support not to give up

So last month I miscarried for the 11th time...it was hard on me bc as soon as i found out I was put on bedrest and had a hemorrhage obviously the bed rest didn't help...so after many doctor visits I finally miscarried... I went to my gyno and told him I want my tubes tied... Texas has a law where if you aren't over a certain age or have so many kids you don't qualify to get it done but bc I'm a medical risk my doctor could appove it but he won't he wants me to keep trying it's hard on me mentally and physically so now I'm trying to decide wether to keep trying or give up