Hubby got JOKES 😂

Lol so i get home from school, start making the bed and look what i find under my pillow. HAHA! Could it be 😱 the infamous TTC positive pregnancy test fairy? 😂💜 he is hilarious. He must have gotten this for me this morning and when he stopped home for lunch, decided to put it under my pillow! LOL😂 welp. I’m about 4/5 days late and i tested negative last night so prayers go up please. I really hope this is our month. We have been trying for almost 10 months, although it doesn’t seem very long, it was! After just 2 months of no positives and AF coming i dreaded every second of it. Until April (last mont) i decided to forget it! I was like the heck with this! I’m not driving myself crazy anymore! Also, during like the middle of last month my in laws came over (niece and sis in law) so we got LIT ! I’m talking patron daiquiris, Apple crown and Apple juice mixes, coolers. Ha! We were going IN! Last month i had so much fun just letting go and not stressing myself. In March, i was abstaining from alcohol! Possibly anything that could harm me or the baby. And guess what, AF STILL showed up in April, so as of April 2nd, i was like WHEN I COME OFF IM GETTING LIT FORGET THIS HAHA. I was drinking HARD stuff so you KNOW i suspected NOTHING of a pregnancy, not even the slightest possibility 😂. And i mean why would it 🤷🏽‍♀️ i had said to myself I’m just going to let it happen whenever it wants to. It’s in God’s will and timing, not mines. Any who, fast forward to May 1stnd, this is a funny story. I start preparing for AF!(remind you i was expecting AF because i was drinking and having funnnn n not worrying, loving my best lifeee stress freeee allat, so it was no reason for her to be late honestly) I started putting a pad on that night Incase i came on in the middle of the night (ladies, you know how that goes!) so i woke up the next day. No AF, so i was just thinking hm, maybe in just a day late. That’s normal! Put on a new pad, went about my day. Throughout the day. It hadn’t occurred to me that i hadn’t came on for some strange reason. I think it was because i was getting some discharge, not a lot just a little. But it was normal discharge. So come the end of the day, i go to the bathroom to “change” my pad, thinking it would be blood there 🤔, but it wasn’t. None at all. So i was like hmm. I waited another day, by now it’s about May 4th thinking well maybe it’s just delayed. I was realllllly sure that it was because i was late! But I’m never this late. My cycle is very regular as you can see in the picture of my cycle below. So at this point like starting the have thoughts of a possible MIRACLE pregnancy 🤔. Of course i started overthinking and ended up calling my mom. I told her “hey ma, I’m 3 days late” she screams in excitement “ WHAAAAT?! ARE YOU PREGNANT?! HAVE YOU TESTED? and i said no and i don’t really want to until i know for sure that I’m not just delayed. And she told me “well i think you should because Al(her boyfriend) JUST TOLD ME HE had a dream about you calling him telling him you were pregnant and you gave birth to a baby boy in his dream LAST NIGHT! I immediately started crying. At this point I’m like “MAAA(balling in tears) you better not be joking, don’t play with me like that” she’s like YES IM SERIOUS and repeated it again. So i ran to the bathroom, at like 9am in the morning(no it wasn’t first morning, but i was anxious) and took a rapid response test that i had in there for a few months, just waiting to be used. It was negative. I got so discouraged, and sad all over again. I was really trying to avoid this type of disappointment because as you know, when TRYIN to conceived negative tests really take a toll on you. No matter how lay or early they are taken. I was like maybe I’m just delayed. Then i was like or maybe my levels aren’t high enough. I didn’t know what to think. I just looked to god, i gave it to god. Of course i didn’t stop stressing, i mean, i still hadn’t seen my period so that’s a given but i just knew i was in good hands. I started searching up stories and watching videos of girls who finally tested positive late in their cycle, I’m talkin like 16,17,18,19- even 30 dpo! I seen so many women post that they finally got their faint line at like 9 days late so that started to give me hope. But then i also started to lose hope thinking that maybe i am just delayed, maybe my period is switching up because I’m just stressing too much. I just started reading scriptures and praying that god would talk to me. Come Sunday, May 5th, my pastor gave us a WONDERFUL word! A few words that stuck with me were 1. “Do his will with love, this is the only way that it will be truly effective” what i got from this was, even when it doesn’t seem like he is meeting you with the deepest desires of your heart, trust in him and continue to do his will. 2. “Tell people about hoe he delivered you. Not all the good, but the bad. Tell them where he met you when you needed him the most” What i got from this is that whether i am blessed with the wonderful opportunity to become a mother to be as of this month, i am blessed to have the ability to even try. To have breath in my lungs, fingers on my hands, feet to walk, a sane mind, body and SPIRIT! I thank you lord! 3. “The moment you decree and declare a thing, god will come meet you at your greatest need.” Wow, can anybody else touch and agree on this! There may be far mote important things that god had planned in this season for me, for you, for us! And we often overlook that, feeling that we have been neglected. When we see that negative, that our prayers haven’t been heard! But BELIEVE IT! They have! It is all in his perfect timing! TRUSSST HIS TIMING! And 4. “His will is perfect, his will is acceptable. Whether we accept it or not, whether we think it or not and whether we like it or not”! It indeed is perfect! You have to always remember that ALL THINGs are working for your good!, cause he’s intentional, and NEVER failing! Even when it feels like he isn’t there! Oh best believe the father, son and the Holy Spirit is THERE! All you have to do is call on him! Yesterday i took another test, and it was negative! And I’m okay with that! I am accepting this and i am trusting that his IS indeed working his will in my life. He really does want to fill the desires of our hearts, as long as it is Christ centered ♥️ as long as it is in HIS WILL! “And do not call anyone on earth father, for you only have one father and he is in heaven” Mather 23:9. And “blessed is she who believed that the lord will fulfill all of his promises to her” Luke 1:45! He WILL not break his promises he has made to us, even when we have broken promises that we made to him. What an awsome god he is! HOW COULD YOU NOT want to just tell your testimony? I will be posting an update on Mother’s Day, which is also my husbands birthday to keep you beautiful ladies updated♥️ i hope everyone has a blessed one. And remember, we are i. The month (5) may, which is the month of GRACE. Amen.