Starting to lose hope.. HELP

I guess I am just looking for an outlet with women who understand..

My husband & I have been trying to conceive for 7 months. And it feels like every month is more sole crushing than the last as we keep getting negative results.

Now, this month I have been feeling different. I’ve had some slight pulling/tightening in my abdomen for about a week (similar to light cramping), I’m constipated, I’m tired, and I think my boobs are a little tender. Because of these things I’ve really allowed my hopes to get up this month, but now I just saw that I am starting to spot slightly.

I’m due for my period in 4 days, so I’m not sure if it’s implantation bleeding or the beginning of my period and I don’t know if I should continue to allow my hopes to be up or try to not be crushed when it turns to red. The not knowing and fear is killing me.

This is the first time I am trying to conceive, so I don’t know what to expect.

I don’t need false hope, but maybe some prayers may help. I’d love to hear if anyone can relate to what I’m going through.

Thank you, ladies.