Kinda confused?

I’ve been just playing with my clit since I was around 12. I’ve never orgasmed, not once. I’m still a Virgin, I’ve tried a shower head and fingering myself (it hurts to use more than just my middle finger, so that doesn’t help me much either) and I’m almost 15 now, I don’t want to have sex, but I want to just feel like what it’s like to have an orgasm. Any advice for me?