I just need a space to vent. I hate my stepdad. Like omg.

It is causing issues with my mum because she things in the most selfish person ever and that I’m depressed and shit isn’t going my way because I don’t take care of their kids when I have deadlines next week and interview to prep for. Because I made plans with my friends and boyfriend and they want me to stay home because their kid needs attention.

There is a 17 years gap between me and my brother and I’m so tired of having this guilty over me because I am living my life and they don’t want to take care of their kid.

I can’t even tell my dad because otherwise my mother said she will tell him what type of daughter I am, a selfish one who doesn’t care about anyone else but me. And I can’t move out and I am so done.

It mentally draining me, I have low self esteem because of it, I keep crying, and it’s too much.

Once he told me to kick his finger full of dust because I said my room was tidy and he said it wasn’t.