Lately I’m finding myself dwelling on all the negative things that have happened in my relationship instead of the good things.

We’ve been through some rough spots, we broke up last October for about a week, the next night he went out with people from high school we never hung out with and got wasted, put a girl on his Snapchat. Was weirder because he never snapchats, just hurt my feelings. He also had stopped using Instagram but I went and saw he liked a few of her pictures (I was in a bad spot checking socials like that but I did).

Anyways we got back together, I heard from his best friend that I had become really close with that my partner said he didn’t see a future with me even when we were together for a year. This hurt a lot of course.

Soon after we got back together after only a week and a half I went to use his phone to google movie times and he started getting so nervous and basically didn’t want me on his phone but didn’t want to say it, I almost kicked him out bc it was so sketchy, so he told me it was because he still has the girl he put on his story when we broken up as a friend on Snapchat. I wouldn’t have even cared about that. To me this alluded to the fact that they had been talking and he did pursue her and maybe hooked up, when he told me he didn’t. We were broken up so if he had then whatever, but he still could’ve lied and it freaks me out. He was a little too friendly with one of my roommates, also a pretty blonde that I didn’t like too much...

I won’t go on but there’s other little things like this that are just clouding my mind. We’re in college in our twenties, we don’t live together yet. I don’t see him all the time, like 3 days a week. We’ve had problems sexually lately, on his end, but only sometimes. I just need something to encourage me that this is going to work. I know I need to talk to him about how I’m feeling but I wish I don’t want to frustrate him. Would love some advice on how to fix my mindset and get over things. I can’t be stuck on these silly things.