I’m just venting

Early this morning had sex and it hurt my stomach. I didn’t feel anything I just felt like I was a “let’s get this over with” and I cried after. When I woke up I felt like a regret. No love I woke up to him being mad at me because I forgot to ask for the car today. And my stomach still hurts. I don’t feel like no one gets me. I feel like a shame. I think it’s my fault doe I shouldn’t have took off my pants and stuff when I’m hot. I can’t tell people I’m depressed because just like my mom said “snap out of it”. It’s hard. I’m kinda happy that I play the sims it’s one of my favorite things to do. Create a fantasy that I would never have