Is it just me or??? 🥺😓

Today, is one of those days.

The hard days.

I can’t help but be bitter towards everything around me, I’m hurting left right and center.

The tiniest things, are making me cry.

I’m four days away from my next period.. and I’m not feeling very confident about conceiving this cycle.

Even though, we’ve done everything we’ve been told to. After countless doctors appointments, bloodtests, being told nothings wrong with neither my husband nor I and then these medicated cycles to boost ovulation, my miscarriage, the tips n tricks and wife’s tales, many tubes of preseed, boxes of mucinex, all the prayers to my Nanny—

Ladies. I’m tired. I’m hurting.

I feel so useless.

And today, today I just want to curl up on the couch. Let go of my responsibilities. Watch a movie, maybe two. I want to cry.

Everyone’s pissing me off. Everyone else is pregnant. And everyone is so fucking insensitive when it comes to those trying. I swear to god if I hear someone else say “it’ll happen when it’s time.” Or “stop trying and it will happen! I swear on it! Trust me”

Shut up. Wasn’t trying before we did start trying, and wasn’t using any type of protection neither. Fucked like bunny rabbits. Never even had a damn scare.

So stop. Stop saying it’ll happen when we stop trying, stop telling me I want/trying for it too much.

I want to be alone. I want to give up....

I’m sure I’m not the only one who has these days, these bitter cold sad days.

I’m sorry as well, for being this bitter to those who are staying positive. I have those days too.

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It’s just one of those days..