March 20th was one of the most magical days of my entire life. After two years of TTCing I finally saw those two beautiful pink lines. I was over joyed and ran into the living room crying with so much joy to my husband, who in turn held me and cried too. My little two year old son ran over and gave me a hug as well, I couldn’t believe he was going to a big brother!

...Well if March 20th was one of my happiest days, April 22nd was the worst day. For a couple days before Easter I started spotting brown, everyone told me that it was normal and probably just old blood. I still felt off about it but continued to enjoy our Easter Day with our family. By that evening I started spotting red and enough that I had to wear a pad.

Off to the emergency room we went and they said our baby had a heartbeat and that my HCG levels looked great, the doctor told me I was just having a “threatened miscarriage”. I didn’t even get to see my baby, that’s one thing I wish I could’ve been able to do. I went home in tears, I just had a feeling in my bones that something was going to happen. I remember that night putting my hand on my stomach and crying asking for this baby to please stay with me.

The next day April 22nd it happened, that sweet baby we had longed for was gone. I ended up losing the baby at home at 9weeks. I know it was early but I had so much love for that little baby. I ended up having to go in for a D&C to get the rest of the tissue out.

Today about a month later I had my post op/follow up appointment. I spoke with my doctor about going forward with TTCing but I want to hear from you ladies.

When do you feel like is the best time to try again? Are there any things you are doing differently? Or anything you are taking?

And to those who have suffered loss I am so so so sorry, no human on this planet should ever have to go through this. My heart goes out to all of you brave warriors💕🌸