Emotional mess

Today has not been an overly emotional day for no real reason. I had my IUD removed the 13th. I was cycling prior to removal, so they figured I shouldn't be too off once it was removed. I have yet to start a cycle. Several friends and family have recently had babies so baby fever has been eating me alive. Today at church I got to hold a week hold baby.

Spent some time talking with my husband too. He isnt against the idea of TTC, just scared that he will pass on his mental illness. Since church, I have cried because idk... I want to be held, loved, and a mom again. Husband and I laied down to watch netflix, he fell asleep, so now I am balling my eyes out.