Marijuana mama

Ok please don’t judge I need to vent my daughter is 8 months and I quit breastfeeding her because I wanted to smoke. I tried to make 1 years old my goal but my husband smokes which makes it hard to not be tempted. After my first time being high again after almost 2 years I don’t want to stop although I feel a little guilty. But I have so much more energy, I’m happier, I started going out more , caring about my appearance again, decluttered my whole house to have a garage sale and I’m currently decided to follow my dream of starting my own business and I actually started having sex with my husband again, yes I’m well aware that I could’ve possibly be experiencing postpartum depression but I already take medication for anxiety and depression and to me marijuanas better. Are there any other mommy’s who feel it helps