Disappointed

I got my IUD out in October last year. We have been TTC every since. My first child I had no problem conceiving. I have done ovulation test and tracking constantly. I’m 5 days away from my period. I’m having crazy back pain, a little sore breast, dizzy, over hot, clammy, not a big appetite, gas, and so tired. I believe I had some implantation bleeding yesterday. However I don’t know if it was or if it was just a stain I had from my period a while back. I’m going to test Friday. I’m scared, nervous, and sick to my stomach. I’m tired of the BFN I want. BFP already... I can tell it’s getting to my boyfriend. Any time I bring it up that I have all these symptoms he has no hope. I want our little one already. I’m praying this month is my time. If I see that negative I may just give up completely.