Feeling guilty

Recently I’ve been feeling like I miss my old life before getting pregnant, it wasn’t all excited like if I was partying or something but I had two jobs & so much more energy. This pregnancy wrecked me with fatigue, I now only have one job & my anxiety got so much worse, I can literally have anxiety from sitting down by myself which freaking sucks & altogether makes me feel sad. & as a first time mom to be, so many things are new to me, things I’ve never heard nobody speak about. pregnancy really isn’t the “most beautiful thing” lol