Feeling alone (just a whine)

Amelia • 29 married 🌈baby boy born 14/9/2020 🤍pregnant with #2 due 30/10

I know I’m not alone, but I can’t help feeling like I’m going crazy. I’ve had hot and cold flashes, dizzy - so, so lightheaded throughout the day, nauseous, disoriented, fatigued. I’m on day 34 of my cycle. AF was due yesterday (usually between days 32-34) but nothing. No cramping, spotting or any other normal symptoms.

I took a test yesterday and it was negative and another one tonight and another negative. I have friends telling me it’s probably just anxiety and my body is just manifesting pregnancy symptoms, but I don’t want that to be true. I just want that positive result (don’t we all). Currently in bed - 6:30pm because I felt too lightheaded to be on the couch. Just a massive whine. It’s been four days of this agony and I feel so over it!