Alone and scared

Im 9 weeks pregnant for the first time, and just shy of 24 hours of being clean and sober. I found out on Saturday that I was pregnant after being told for my most of life I wouldn’t ever have a child of my own. Im shocked, overjoyed, but mostly scared. My partner is out of town until Friday for work and all my “friends” are still active in their disease. I have my mom but she lives in a different state and I can’t call her every time I feel uncomfortable.

I’m struggling with my symptoms of withdrawal and emotions that are surfacing from withdrawal, and from the news that I’m pregnant. Also, I’ve been living with Untreated PTSD and depression since I was 13 and it’s throwing a huge monkey wrench in this already complicated situation.

I’m in the process of getting into treatment but I have to wait. I just feel really overwhelmed and filled with guilt and shame and am experiencing a lot of negative self talk/thought. Any tips or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated