My heart is completely shattered (trigger warning)💔

I lost another baby today... I was so sure this time that this bean would stick... But God had other plans for him.

I started lightly spotting Saturday when I was exactly 8 weeks. I wasn't too concerned as spotting can be normal and it was barely anything. Then today at work (8w2d) I went to the bathroom and there was a lot of brown spotting. I got very nervous so I called my OB and she wanted to see me tomorrow. The brown spotting quickly turned to bright red and got heavier so I had to go to the ER...

They did not see a heartbeat anymore... My little bean stopped growing at about 7 weeks.

I have been crying non stop and I'm laying down in my bathroom in a lot of discomfort and severe nausea as things are starting to progress...

As hard as all of this is.. I trust God and his plan for me. And I trust and believe my little bean is in paradise with his little brother or sister that I lost previously... I know they are watching over me and my son.