Emotions

We experienced a miscarriage about 4 months ago. My emotions have been all over the place. Today we found out our friends are expecting. While I am so happy for them I am also very bitter and upset for us. I wonder if this part will ever get easier. Walking past the baby aisles in stores, seeing other pregnant women, talking about babies, it’s all so hard some days. Recently all my friends have had positive things going on in their lives and I am just upset and bitter towards these events. This is not the type of friend I am, I am typically never the jealous type. Is there a day this all gets easier? Today I just want to cry that it’s not fair they get a child and I had to lose mine. I don’t want to be like this forever, I want this to get better.