I know this is an incredibly controversial and triggering topic for some so I am only welcoming all open minded people onto this post. I understand some people are strictly pro-life and so I ask that you please don’t read on. Im not here to be blasted for my decisions, I just really need some help.

My partner and I had being trying for a baby. Our relationship was amazing. We have always been that couple that makes other people cringe with our too much hand holding, obnoxious giggling and PDA. We moved into a new house and everything seemed amazing, and then we found out we had a baby on the way! We were so ecstatic!! But that’s where things changed. All of a sudden my gentle, sweet, gorgeous fiancé started to get really snappy and short tempered with me. He became incredibly cold and manipulative, all within a couple of weeks. 2 days ago I broke it off. He was starting to scare me with how he was treating me and my son and he would sit there and antagonise and intimidate me until I was in tears.

I wanted this baby so so much and I wanted to do it with him. I couldn’t wait to do it with him!! I loved and do still love him so much but I’m so conflicted. One part of me sais to go through with a termination (I already have 1 child to an ex partner) because I don’t want all that crazy baby daddy drama and visitation orders and all that awful stuff, I also don’t want to do such an incredible and special time all by myself.

The other half of me can’t bare the thought of a termination. I love this baby so much and I wanted it so bad. Every time I think about not having the baby I break down into tears and can’t stop crying. I just don’t know what to do. Am I being selfish by keeping this baby, knowing he/she is going to come into a broken home or do I terminate and possibly regret my decision for the rest of my life but have no drama and carry on my life with just my son?

Please help me ladies