Can't believe my mother said that

So unlike some people who age like a fine wine both physically and personality wise, my mother has not.

I love her to death, don't get me wrong. But to explain what I mean, my stepdad had the worst temper growing up. I remember being more scared of him than actually loving him as a father figure. But as the years have gone by, he's really mellowed out, and has become the best man I know. But it's vice versa for my mother. She was the mellow one. Now she just says whatever nonsense pops into her head without a filter, and her temper is completely over the top.

Usually I don't have too much of a problem with her, but yesterday.......golly bum I wanted to ring her neck. When it came to getting ready to head out to the pool, I was having some trouble finding a swimsuit that fit and felt comfortable. I tried a few on that I had packed before she came out and said that the tank top styled one I was wearing was the best I had look all week. Which I did not take as a compliment. First, I had already worn other things this week that I thought looked good on me. Second, it was skin tight and showed all the curves and lumps of my postpartum belly.

So as annoyed as that comment made me, I just went ahead and tried to wear it. Until it made me super itchy. The only swimsuit I had left were high waisted bottoms and a bikini top. So nervously I went to get changed, when my mom walks by. When she heard me explain what I was doing.... Y'all. She gave me the biggest stink eye I have ever seen on her. She didn't even listen to half of what I had said and immediately started ranting about it, saying "Omg that other one looked so much better, you are seriously going to regret wearing that. You've had two kids. You can't wear bikinis anymore." I told her twice that it was too itchy to wear, but she ignored me and continued the rant in front of me, my sister, and my husband.

I'm easily the calmest person in our entire family. I never yell or raise my voice. I never cuss in front of anyone. And I always try to avoid confrontation. But hearing her said I can't wear that, infuriated me to my core. First, I slammed the bathroom door, and tried to change quickly. Which my sister witnessed and told our mom that she was pissing me off. Then when she continued, I said fuck it, and stormed out of the bathroom and said I'm not going out then. I just three a t-shirt and shorts on over the stupidly itchy thing, and began putting some things back into my suitcase. She had the nerve to wonder what the hell was wrong with me, so I wipped around and yelled at her with tears in my eyes "I just told you not once but twice why I can't wear that, but you went on your stupid fucking rant anyway. IDC if you say you didn't hear me, literally everyone else in the room did." I stormed off and we haven't spoken since. No apologies, nothing. My husband was furious with her. Both of my sisters and my stepdad were appalled that she even said that. Later we went out anyway, and I wore that bikini like a fucking badge of honor and even danced around at the pool bar. 🖕

I'm just so over this whole family vacation. It's definitely our last one. We might end up going home early if shit doesn't get better around here.