Insecure

Basically the situation is yesterday I met with someone for the first time who I’ve been talking to for a very long time. I ended up staying around his and we just stayed up all night talking. We didn’t get up the next day until much later and spent the day cuddling.

Things started heating up and we ended up doing things leading up to us having sex. We didn’t for very long because he stopped and told me he wasn’t getting off to it at all. He said it was nothing to do with me, he just ‘wasn’t right’.

I know recently he’s started on sertraline and that can decrease your sex drive and he was very nice about it but I can’t help but feel insecure. I feel like he either doesn’t like me enough to orgasm, I’m too ugly for him to cum or I’m just awful at sex. Either way, it was a very awkward and uncomfortable situation for both of us and I found myself holding back tears while in his arms.

I feel like everything’s been ruined before it’s even begun and it’s sad because I do have genuine feelings for the lad and it’s painful once again hurting over someone.