A little rant

Sorry for venting out on here but have no one to vent to. I've already given up after a year of nothing and a chemical pregnancy I just feel like a bad mother already. Don't have any family and my husband doesn't understand the pain. I keep on seeing everyone having babies and being so happy, I know it's selfish but I envy them so much! I went off glow for 3 months thinking that I'm stressing too much and by a miracle I'll be pregnant. Unfortunately that didn't happen. Feel like a failure. Sorry for ranting especially that I know that there are people here who have been trying for way longer than me! 😔 When will my little miracle happen 😢