Slow down

I realized I was rocking at being a stay at home mom. I mean killing it. Up until I realized I wasn't enjoying it. I was so task oriented and so consumed with completing my to do list and keeping a spotless house, hosting all our visitors, having no laundry, breastfeeding a cluster feeder. Losing all the extra baby weight and walking (I did lose it all plus some.) I should also mention I am disabled so I felt really accomplished I could do everything.

But I realized I became so frustrated when my little one month old had hiccups and needed cuddles. I realized then that was my purpose. I was supposed to be doing those cuddles. That was my job. I was supposed to want to cuddle him. I was so fixated on making a homemade organic healthy meal from scratch that I forgot what was really important.

I have had a lot of angry backlash from family and friends for deciding that we will no long have visitors till this weekend. That it was critical for me to slow down physically and mentally and really enjoy my time with my baby. That bonding was more important.

I don't know who needs to hear this but the laundry can wait so can the vacuuming. Please cuddle your baby and enjoy this time. Your baby will never be smaller then they are today so enjoy it.