I am 1-4

I don’t know why I felt I had to hide the fact we lost our baby at 9 weeks. I truly don’t know why everyone is afraid to Speak about it. I know how tragic and upsetting it is because I lived it. I felt so much love for that baby in those few short weeks. Never thought I’d be 1-4 women who miscarry. I didn’t heart a heart beat, I never saw my baby but I felt it. They say I’m lucky I didn’t because it would’ve hurt that much more. I Truly don’t think so, I have never loved something so Much and had to make a heartbreaking choice to remove it from my life. My baby wasn’t just a sack. I made plans for that baby. I had dreams for that baby. I wanted that baby. I know each month that passes I miss that baby. I prayed for that baby. I continue to find hope and strength to try again. Every negative test brings me back to that moment of heartache. I’m told to relax and don’t stress, and try not to think about it. How can I not think about something I want more then anything in the world. How can I not worry or stress about the fact it’s not happening. You say god has plans for us, what is it then? I pray and I prayed for Relief to help me understand this plan.

Help me keep faith 🌈🙏🏻