Discouraged but a little happy.

I’ve never been a big girl ever!! But im struggling bad with my weight and how much I hate how I look. I’ve had 3 babies and my body just wont keep the weight off. I have lost a little bit but then it just comes back. I’ve started walking more after I had my last baby and started eating differently. (I had a miscarriage 8 yrs ago, then got pregnant again with my now 5yr old and just had my daughter 4 months ago.) so I guess this is where I feel I can just express how I feel without the judgement (hopefully).