I wrote- “Am I crazy or is he cheating” earlier this morning. I did delete the post, but before doing so I read each comment carefully.

He didn’t have snap chat for just two days. He’s had it for a few months now but doesn’t really speak much about it. He’s never been big on social media and is one to believe it’s toxic while your in a relationship. I see why he feels that way now.... 🤦🏻‍♀️

He does do early morning meal prep. He goes to the grocery store (Walmart to be specific) and shows what foods are good for you and what foods are bad for you while loosing weight. He also does videos of clients demonstrating the work outs he teaches you. Like using the battle ropes! His client in this particular video is in her 60s using a 100 plus pound battle rope correctly!

Today he took me to our favorite bakery, and bought me whatever I wanted with out me having to ask. This was spontaneous and not mentioned to me till the morning. It was nice going out kid free just me and him. It’s a 45 minute trip to and from this bakery.

While at the bakery he took pictures of the lady’s product and shared it to his snap story to show everyone who follows him this amazing place for cheat day. He’s very committed to the gym and his workouts. Coming from an obese 300 pound man to a man who weighs 160 and is pure muscle and not fat is be obsessed too.

He did go out with friends in the past, like so far back when we first started dating. They never went to the bar, instead played cards and talked all night. Always came home on time. But that stopped because I got insecure, over time it got better and he started playing cards with friends again.

He recently turned 30 and has big dreams/goals that hasn’t worked out just yet. So I support him emotionally/mentally as best I can. Last year he broke his foot and was bed ridden for 8 weeks! Sike! That shit didn’t stop him from keeping up with the gym life. He continued so he didn’t lose his muscles and gain weight. He made YouTube videos for that period of time but stopped because it sucked up so much internet. 😞

As I said before yes, he started going out with a friend who he used to play cards with before he moved 3 hours away. That was a once a month thing. Then started talking more to some gym friends and I convinced him to go out a few times. He was reluctant at first but then agreed he needed it. I try to get him to go out on the weekend only to keep him sane because I know how it feels to be trapped all the time.

So yes, I’m absolutely fucking crazy and had a bipolar moment. 🙄 The app was on his phone I just overlooked it. It wasn’t the first time he spoke about it crashing either. Like I said before, he asked me for help but I don’t have a snap. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I did bring this up to his attention and he told me he wouldn’t want to ruin the bond and family we created. That it would devastate him to lose us, and everything we worked hard for.

I need a vacation or some damn medication. 😂

Signed a crazy girlfriend who overthinks shit all the time.