parenting- i don’t think i’m doing it right

i’m not sure if this the correct group so i’ll post in the other group as well.

i’m 21 years old & im 36 weeks pregnant. when i got pregnant my child’s father changed completely. before i got pregnant he would say he’s trying to get me pregnant. he has been HORRIBLE to me throughout my entire pregnancy. Having sex with multiple other people, got someone else pregnant and just decided that he doesn’t want to be in a relationship me. He constantly fought me to get an abortion for nearly the first 4/5 months of my pregnancy. On mother’s day i got him upset and he spent the morning of mother’s day like (4 am) telling me to kill my baby and then by (3pm) telling me happy mother’s day. it’s 5:49 am and i’m crying writing this. so if i’m not making any sense i apologize.

i just don’t see how someone can treat someone like this. i honestly don’t know what i did or what makes it ok to do my baby like this. he’s 24 and he doesn’t have family. his mom is dead and since i first met him. i made myself available to help him whenever he needs help. i had to force him to come to appointments with me. and at first he would just sit there with headphones in and the ultrasound tech would try to involved him and he would just completely be rude to them. eventually he started to pay attention and ask questions as i got further along. he wants to name my baby.

but iguess now i’m tired. i hate him and i don’t want him in my life. i don’t want to talk to him. i don’t want to see him because i get angry all over again. i’m angry at myself and him. i shouldn’t never trusted him. i tried taking the steps to coparenting. we where on facetime and was talking about postpartum and i was asking if he’ll be able to help me during recovery but he spent the whole time texting people in my ear while i’m talking and just telling me “ik i went through all this already” (he has a son already) i just got soooo angry. I spent my whole pregnancy crying, stressing and depressed because of him. i want peace now. my baby is coming in a few weeks and i want to focus and prepare myself to be a mother. he always says he here for me but i have no job and i spent over $500 on baby stuff, he hasn’t gave me a penny. He’s not there physically for me. i’m 36 weeks pregnant alone 5hours away & he doesn’t care! and he’s not there emotionally because i can’t have a conversation with him.

i just muted him and when he text i don’t respond I just “like” the message (iphone). he texts me to ask me if me and the baby is ok. but i that gets me sooo mad bc we aren’t ok! i’m going through it and baby still needs things and he’s response is everything will be fine. it’ll work out. but i’m like howwww if you chasing girls instead of a job. don’t want me that’s fine but not helping with the baby is NOT ok! he has nothing to offer me or my child. i feel like he’s holding me back and i want nothing to do with him. however he is my child father and they are supposed to have a relationship regardless of my hurt and anger. so my question really is how am i supposed to do this parenting thing with someone like him? ik if i ignore him or make it hard for him to communicate with me i’ll become the “bitter baby mama”