Getting immune to sadness

So my period came today, one day earlier than expected and without the regular 2-3 days prior symptoms at all, due to the lack of them I thought this might really be the month (then again I think this every month). I went to the restroom at my office, realized and just came back.

Yes I’m disappointed as the last 6 cycles but this time I don’t even want to cry, I don’t feel the pinch in the stomach with emptiness, I don’t want to text my hubby and tell him how sad I feel, actually I don’t feel sad per se, I just feel like 🤷🏻‍♀️.

Am I getting inmune to the usual sadness. Or Am I just resigned?

Someone else going/went through this?