Cervical Cancer

Last week I received the unexpected news that I have cervical cancer. My doctor said he feels optimistic and that it will be an easy treatment but is referring me to an oncologist.

Now it’s a waiting game.

Everyday that goes by and I do not hear from the oncologist’s office with an appointment all I can think about is this cancer just growing inside of me.

Everyone around me keeps saying that it’s all going to be fine and everything will work out. But will it? How can you assume that when we don’t yet even know how bad and far it is?

Why do doctor offices and insurance companies move at such a snail’s pace when people’s life and sanity are on the line?

All I wanted was a baby and now that is looking more and more unlikely.

Sorry for the ramble. It’s just not easy to talk to people around me.