Idk what to do.

I just graduated from high school, I’ve lost all my friends. I have a boyfriend but he is just so distant. And my family see me as the smart kid and I don’t want them to see me down. But I break down every night. I tell my mom that I need someone to talk to like therapy but she laughs at me and goes on. I just don’t know what to do or where to go. I have no one I can talk to about my personal problems. :(