Ugh 🥴

So lately I haven't been feeling too good about myself . After being cheated on and having a baby . My body has changed . My mind has changed . My soul has changed . I dont feel like the old me . I feel different . I want to change my outside to match my inside . I've always been into the whole hippie / boho look and I deff feel connected to the style other than just the looks . I've been vegan for two years and I spend as much time as I can outside exploring . I love doing yoga and meditated . I have a crap ton of plants in my home. I'm an empath to the max . Ive grown up this way . But I've spent my whole teenage years and young womanhood with my father and brother . And the friends that I did have that were woman arent into the things I'm into . Which is fine . I just dont have anyone I can get advise from or ask if they like my outfit and I just cant seem to be able to style myself the way I want to . Nothing seems to fit me the way I think it should . I have no woman friends anymore either besides my mother in law and as much as I love her and can talk to her about anything idk how I'd feel telling her all this . It makes me feel super vulnerable. I hate feeling like I'm becoming this woman . Going on this journey of finding out who I am ans what I want and my sexual side and mother side and womanness . I've never felt like a woman either . Always a girl . I'm always told to out on more clothes dont wear that . But then I see these gorgeous women wearing what I'd like to and no one thinks they should cover up no one thinks they shouldn't wear the clothes they have on so I always assumed it was because of how I looked or that I'm not woman enough . Wow. I just really let that all out . And I feel like I can go on . But I wont . Rant over .