I wanna get better.

I wanna see a therapist and get better, i'm 15 and I've been clinically depressed and I recently just found out, I self diagnose but I have all the symptoms of clinical depression , I know I'm not supposed to but I want to know what's the reason I don't want to get out of my house and just want to stay in bed all day, I'm so emotionally tired, my parents are facing financial problems for a very long time and that's probably why I just feel worse and worser..I get $15 for a week and it is so hard for me to save money, when I go out with friends I have to plan how much to spend so I can have enough money to buy what I want, life has been really stressful, i told my mom that my teacher wants me to see a doctor but she say it will only waste money, everything is about money, the fact that money is even more important than my health hurts me, i wish i was dead so i will not have to experience this, telling my friends that i only get $15 per week embarrass me, my dad is only making everything worse, coming home from work and starts shouting and complaining how my mom doesn't know how to teach her children..i hate my dad and i just am really fucked up.

•whoever reads this, thanks for taking your time to read ,sorry for it being so long•