Never feeling secure about weight

I get very easily triggered about my weight I'm sure it's my fault not that that helps. I am 5'3" i have a 2 year old. I managed to get down to 125 which is where i am now. Recently i read online (i know) a bunch of males saying women my height should be 110. I feel like i could lose 10 lbs and I'd still think i didn't look good enough. Other females my weight or over i am jealous of like i criticise myself so much and see only beauty in others. This guy I've been seeing kinda indicated I'd look better if i lost weight. This shit makes me wanna not eat like that's how low i feel. I just would like anything uplifting i guess not in a good place.