My marriage is over

After almost 2 yrs of being together, 2 yrs of marriage & 2 kids (1 yr old & just 1 month old) our marriage is coming to an end.... there is no talking to each other. The guards are up, the belief that it can’t change or get better is strong, the pain is deep & he won’t allow to connect anymore. I just can’t believe that just shy of my 36th birthday & this my 2nd marriage, I’ll be a 2nd time divorced woman with 3 children now. This was supposed to be my forever. This was supposed to my last hurrah!! we were supposed to grow old together, make it to the top together. So why are we here now? Why is my wedding ring in his pocket now & his on our dresser??? How am I sitting here in tears going through my belongs to get rid of things to eliminate the amount of stuff I take with me when I move?? I honestly don’t know how I’m here now BUT I am & now to allow myself to feel this pain & find a way to rebuild myself as a single mom of 3......