Need help! Multiple pp related things!

So I'm 4 months pp. I gained 37 lbs and was 190 the day I had my son via emergency C-section. I have lost a whole 5 lbs 😭 I've always had an "apron" from weight loss surgery but now it's a lot more fatty and hangs lower. I'm beside myself. I had MORE CONFIDENCE when I was 250 lbs before gastric bypass. Now I feel like a dilapidated pear.

My belly after losing 100 LBS ⬇

4 months pp ⬇ (click for full pic)

Any tips?! I cannot breastfeed so that hasn't helped my situation. I feel seriously ugly. And my motivation is gone, like I'll NEVER lose the weight.

I'm seriously upset I feel this way. I chose weight loss surgery so I COULD HAVE BABY since I suffered with infertility that was weight (and pcos) related.

My first pp period was 8 days long. Which I expected. Second was 7 days long.. Okay, maybe it'll get better.. This is my third pp period and I've been bleeding for 12, TWELVE, days.

Has anyone dealt with this? I will add that I have nexplanon and pcos. Prior to pregnancy my period lasted 3-4 days so this is some straight

Any insights/experiences/advice would be great. Help this Mama out!

Picture of my miracle just because 💙 (click for full pic)