Birth advice

Laugh at me all you want.... (I keep laughing at myself), but I am afraid to have a vaginal birth. 🤦🏽‍♀️😂. With my first pregnancy, I made it all the way to 9cm dilated and ended up having an emergency c-section. I was a little relieved but disappointed at the same time.

Now I’m on baby #2 and I’m still afraid lol. I want to try, but at the same time, I already know what to expect with a c-section and have the option to have either for birth (assuming that all continues to go well and I don’t develop preeclampsia).

Im due 12/27 and I’m leaning towards another c-section. I’m hoping to have her scheduled on 12/18 because it’s my MIL’s birthday and she has passed away. I know it would mean the world to my husband to have this baby and his mom share a birthday, but at the same time he says if she’s meant to be born that day, she will be. Any advice?