He watches porn

I have been in a relationship with my current boyfriend for over a year. We are very good at communicating and we trust each other.

Last night we were talking and the topic came up. He told me that he usually looks at my pictures or porn when jerking off. (We live an hour away from each other and we both work. So sometimes it’s just impossible to meet if we’re feeling horny)

I love this guy and I really trust him. I know he would never cheat on my and I also know that he would choose me over any porn girl.

The problem is, I have a history with self esteem issues and a past with years of eating disorders.

Right now we are both trying to lose weight and get fit. So this confession made me feel uncomfortable and icky.

I know he loves me but I since the confession I cant bring myself to be naked in front of him. I don’t let him touch me anymore. I just feel like I’m not good enough, not pretty enough. I feel like maybe he was trying to tell me something about my weight.

Am I overthinking this? I know he wouldn’t feel comfortable if I was to watch porn when he’s not around

Please help ladies!!!