Feeling stuck in my own life

I moved away from my hometown approximately 3 years ago. I moved seeking better opportunities, the chance to buy a house, form a family & ultimately be happy.

The house was bought last year. I also had my first baby be born last year. I should be ecstatic, after all this is what I moved away for right ? Well I am miserable! I feel so sad, as though I am drowning in my own depression.

To make matters worst, I lost my mother this year. The main person I would go back home and visit. The person who would love me, comfort me, advice me. My best friend, my confident, my world.

I am a SAHM, alone with my baby all day.

I live in a small town with nothing to do, surrounded by desert. I miss my family, I miss my friends, I hate that my baby has to be raised alone as if he doesn’t have a million cousins back home. I hate that our home is isolated and in the middle of nowhere, that itself KILLS ME.

I just feel so unhappy,

But what am I suppose to do? Go back home & leave this house we just bought?

I just want to BE HAPPY, but I’m in prisoner to my own life.

Some words of encouragement would mean the world right now.