Depressed boyfriend broke up with me

So we were together a few months shy of 2 years, since early May we have had our ups and downs, which got really stressful and he needed space and I didn’t really understand that because the way I handled my depression is different, and all I’ve knew was that he was on medication but he didn’t have a mental breakdown since since years and the only thing I noticed was that he was more angry and irritable. So we broke up about two weeks and I have begged, and pleaded for us to be together and he keep’s saying that he want’s to be alone and need’s time to himself. It was all a shock on me and I didn’t really expect it, I hope as I gave him time then he would come out of it but he hasn’t yet, and right now he’s a person that I don’t even know. Even though we had our ups and downs, I was so happy and he was incredible but right now it’s like he’s heartless and doesn’t even care. I don’t want to lose him forever but I feel like trying to talk sense into him, let him know that I’m there to support him and I want to be there through this with him just like he was for me isn’t helping. Depression is a tricky disease, so when you’re having a rough patch it’s really hard to think right, I’ve read up so much on this and it’s crazy how many people have/had the same situation as me. They push people away because of their depression, feel like they need to be alone and handle the situation themselves and also point the blame on their loved one and that’s exactly what I’m going through. I feel like I’m lost, I have no idea what to do and I don’t just want to give up and never be with him again but I feel like just talking to him makes things worse because I get so upset and it starts a argument and I don’t mean too. I feel like the major problem is that he knows that I love him, I’m here and I’m hurt. He was such a advantage over my head that is like a rush to people with depression, and yes it is wrong but I’ve been there and done that and I feel like that’s solely the problem. I’m staying with my sister right now and my brother in law, and my brother in law’s sister’s fiancé they all work together and my ex pick’s up the fiancé everyday so he always obviously got insight on me if he wanted it, I share love quotes that’s so clear that I’m hurt, he literally can know what I’m doing all day, and I feel like that leave’s me I’m advantage to his behaviour because it’s not him, before this happened it was so good, things were rough sometimes but the love and connection we had you can’t deny it. I just need some advice, so I limit my activity on social media, stop watching his stories, and stop reaching out and pretend to be okay, because I don’t wanna lose him for good but I don’t think it would be good to get back together on my terms, because right now he isn’t accepting that not everything is my fault and he hasn’t owned up to his shit, and I think once he realizes shit I might lose her then he will smarten up and we can finally have a sensible conversation. Last time we have a rough patch, he thought I deleted him on Facebook and he messaged me one day that I was home and he was at work telling me that he had the biggest fright of his life because he thought I deleted him, a couple days prior to us breaking up I was telling him that if the roommates have a problem with my dog then I will move out, and he was so upset saying he didn’t want me to leave, if I left he was going too and how I was going to leave him. There’s been many times over the last couple months that every time I got upset he would always say I’m trying to leave him, and how come when he get’s ‘like this’ I try to leave, which I never tried, but it was like his biggest fear and now he’s like this and I don’t understand. I’m sorry for the jumbled post, and the rambling and probably lack of punctuation but I’m just typing and typing. How do you think I should handle this? Just go radio silent and keep my distance? Because I feel like him knowing I’m right around the corner is feeding a depressed person ego and I know that is the worst.