Losing my mind with anxiety

I am currently 8w6d. I lost my last one at 9weeks. My first MD appointment isn’t until next week. My symptoms have greatly subsided. I am still tired, but that could be due to a million other things. My breasts are much less tender and my nausea is basically gone. I am freaking out. I am 39 and said that I won’t have a baby after 40, which means this is it, and I feel like it’s already over. I don’t know how I am going to make it 6 more days til my scan🙁