I feel like I am only in love with my boyfriend because I feel like I have a better future then my ex. Up

I broke up with my ex little over a year ago, thinking it was the right thing to do. I was completely heart broke. I ended up up hooking up with someone and dating them.

It's been a year and a couple of months and I still feel like I am in love with my ex... I feel like I am only with my boyfriend because at the beginning of our relationship, he'd take me out to eat and buy me things. (At the time I was very broke working 2 jobs and still am lol) it felt nice to be treated like that.

I just feel like he is not the one for me. I felt like we moved to fast in our relationship for me. When I wasn't even close to being over my ex. We started living together right away with my parents. I told him I felt like we're were moving too fast but he kept pushing saying that he didn't want a long distance relationship.

I know my boyfriend truly loves me and want to share his life with me. It just I don't think I feel the same. He does a lot for me. Pays for food, gas and stuff that needs to be fixed on my car. Even though I ask him not to ( I'm a very independent person) I do care about him I just feel like I am not truly in love with him.

He moved away from his family and friends to be with me. I feel like it would be shitty of me to break up with him since he doesn't know alot of people out here and he'd probably go back to where he lived before... Amyd he quite a very good job he had.

I've tried talking to him about how I feel about my ex but he says that I am overthinking and that I just want to be friends with him. I don't think he gets the full picture...

I have very deep dreams about him and I think about him all the time. I can see myself growing old with him. Having kids, sharing a home etc... He was my first boyfriend and we were together for 3 years almost 4.

I think in the moment I thought my boyfriend was the one but as the honeymoon phasing went away, I could see the real picture. I feel like I am only with him because I would have a better financial future then I would have with my ex. I know that shouldn't be a reason to stay with someone. I know I will complete break his heart. I care about him too much to do that to him. I think that's the reason why I stay with him. I feel like it would be suck to have to go back home since it's so far away.

What should I do? I feel completely lost at the moment.

Update! I do feel like I missed a couple of things but oh well...