Give me your opinions please

My husband and I went out to eat today. Our host was very pretty and had beautiful blue eyes. I just had a baby two weeks ago via c section. Our baby girl ended up passing away at 31 weeks. Which is a story in itself. So lately I’ve been feeling down, and on top of that feeling not my self. From the weight gain to dealing with all that’s been going on has drained me.

So we eat and we leave and the host says bye and we say bye and whatever, we walk out.

So my husband goes “ you know babe, if I didn’t marry you, I probably would have married a white girl”. I look at him like wtf. And he goes, you kept me on the Latina side. At this point I was like, did u really just say that to me. I felt so disrespected I wanted to say so much but didn’t. He knew I was upset and goes, are you really mad at me babe, I was just messing around. I can’t ever mess around with u without u getting mad at me.

The whole car ride he was trying to be like babe u know I love you, I was just messing around. I’m sorry I say stupid stuff sometimes.

But for me I can’t help but know that there is a little truth behind Just kidding. I really took it as he was attracted to the host because she was a pretty and she was a white girl. Which is fine. I know he finds other woman attractive, but why does he have to say something like that to me.

So I haven’t talked to him since we got home. I really feel a certain way and I’m on the verge of holding a grudge towards him for awhile. I might even divorce his ass so he can marry someone else.

Would this bother you if your SO said something like this to you?

I’m probably over reacting but I don’t care

He hurt my fucking feelings.