When my twins were born I had marijuana in my system and CPS took them from me when I gave birth. They were with a foster family till they were about 7 months old. I got to visit them 2 days a week for 3 hours. When they came home I was over joyed but I didn’t feel like they were my babies and went through PPD pretty bad. I did everything I could to feel that special connection to them but I never did.

3 years later....

I just had my baby boy, he’s currently 6 days old and I’m inlove with him! I felt the connection the moment I found out I was pregnant. Now I just feel guilty because I know my daughters are jealous and can see my bond with him is stronger than my bond with them.

They have been acting out terribly, screaming at the top of their lungs when I tell them it’s quiet time because the baby needs to sleep, they hit eat other and now refuse to use the potty and try to eat the poop in their diapers..... I don’t know what to do... I feel like I failed them.