I’m desperately afraid to leave an unhappy relationship.

Let me start by saying, things weren’t always this way, he was a happy person as was I and we were so very much in love. We did everything together and loved each other so fiercely but that love has through many situations and fights turned into bitterness and resentment.

He’s not a bad person but he’s not good for me anymore.

We have a beautiful son together who’s only 6 months old and I know staying together for the kids isn’t what’s best for them or us but I’m scared to leave.

I’m scared to be a single mom.

I’m scared that I’ll never find happiness (the same is true if I were to stay)

I’m scared that nobody will accept me

I’m scared to be alone

I’m scared that I’m not good enough to raise my son alone (I know that’s not true)

I’m scared that my son will blame himself for us not being together

I’m scared that his father will blame me, and demonize me to my son

I’m scared my son will resent me for making the decision to leave

But most of all, I’m scared to spend my life in the grey area. I’m scared to live dispassionately. I’m scared to set the wrong example for my son in relationships. I’m scared to walk on egg shells.