New pregnancy. New baby. 😬

That’s what I keep telling myself. The first 2 days I was so excited! Now I’m terrified. I haven’t missed my period yet so now It’s just a waiting game that’s torturing me. Every time I go to the bathroom I check the TP for blood. I miscarried at 8 weeks last time but baby stopped growing at 6 weeks. Making it until 12 weeks seems so far and so scary. I already have an appointment with elective ultrasound for 8 weeks to check on baby. I still have to make the phone call to the women’s VA to get the ball running for my appointments and finding a doctor. I have very bad phone anxiety so that’s a chore in itself. I’m just so worried that I’ll loose this baby too. How do you eases your mind?