Hey ladies, I’ve been struggling with some judgement on my choice for a planned C-section due to sexual abuse as a toddler all the way into my teens, by a family member and one of the family members friends.

Sex has been a very difficult and unstable thing in my life, I’ve been with the same man almost 3 years, I’ve managed to get somewhat comfortable with him and sex within our relationship, it took nearly a good solid two years for that trust to build and even now it can be spars at times from ptsd attacks. Vaginal examinations are a massive trigger for me, having been tested after relationship, constant infections and needing examinations, etc. Even with massive amounts of pain, getting examinations down there send me into days of ptsd attacks and make my bipolar flair up. It’s a raw feeling of violation.

I decided the only option for me was a C-section as the weight of having examinations and trauma of birthing a child down there was going to be too much. I’ve since researched and got all I need to know the risks of c-sections and what comes with it but people still think I’m mad and should be having a vaginal birth. Telling me horror stories and how it’s worse to have a c-section and basically just that I need to reconsider. It‘s really eating me up.