I miss being pregnant

I miscarried 3 weeks ago and I know it’s normal to feel this way but I miss being pregnant so much :(

I miss the nausea, the sore boobs, I miss rubbing my tummy knowing there was a little bean in there :(

I miss the needing to pee every 5 minutes, I miss looking at baby clothes. I was only 8 weeks but I really thought it was going to happen this time so I let myself fall in love with little baby grows and outfits which I know feel stupid for :(

This is our third miscarriage and we have now been referred to a Recurrent pregnancy Loss team to discuss it all and I have to have bloods taken but in my head I keep thinking “I should be this many weeks” today I should have been 11 weeks ugh I sound so stupid :( I’m a mess