Putting a hold on TTC 😢

My husband & I were TTC for almost a year now on & off. Last week I made the hardest decision I've had to make in a long time. I decided to get on birth control. As much as i want a baby & want to start a family it wouldn't be very smart at the moment & I feel like I would be selfish for bringing a baby into this world right now. My husband & I aren't in the best position in our marriage right now. And to be honest idk what's gonna happen or if things will ever truly change. Things get better for a month then go downhill again (which is why we were trying on & off in the last year). I didn't talk to my husband about getting on birth control but felt like that was the right thing to do. I wanna see actual changes from the both of us for a good few months & then we can talk about starting a family if the time is right. I'm sad of course because this is something that I've wanted so bad but at the end of the day a baby will not fix a marriage. I guess I just need some encouraging words that i did the right thing for now. 😔